3 Unexpected Lessons From A Kundalini Awakening.

3 Unexpected Lessons From A Kundalini Awakening.

3 Unexpected Lessons From A Kundalini Awakening. 1920 1278 Christina Lopes

Before I get into my story, let’s get this question answered first:

What in the bleep is kundalini?

“Kundalini, a Sanskrit word meaning ‘circular power’, is an individual’s basic evolutionary force. Each of us is born with some of this energy already flowing. It is not just a matter of using what we already have, but of awakening the much greater amount waiting in the kundalini reservoir located at the base of the spine.”

Genevieve Lewis Paulson, “Kundalini and the Chakras: Evolution in this Lifetime”

Now, here’s my story.

2014. I was silently meditating when it all started.

My body began to rock ever so slightly. And the rocking kept intensifying. Before I knew it, my entire spine was rocking in a wave. I tried to stop it by contracting my muscles with all the willpower one could muster. But that didn’t work– it only hurt.

So I relaxed and let go.

My clinical brain tried to explain what was happening but there were no mental answers for this. So I re-focused the power of my awareness on my breath and on the wave in my spine.

The came the intense heat.

It started out at the bottom of my spine but before long, moved up with the wave. I felt like a furnace. My abdominals contracted forcefully and my torso bent forward over my crossed legs. My face was almost touching the floor.

It didn’t hurt at first but the contractions kept getting stronger and stronger. And they eventually started to cause pain. It felt like something had taken over my body.

I began to feel fear but there was a voice that whispered deep within:

“Everything is okay.”

Without knowing it, I was experiencing a kundalini awakening.

When the wave and heat finally subsided, I opened my eyes. My entire world had just changed.

Everything looked different. Intense colors, sounds of birds, the blue sky above. Everything in my environment seemed more alive. “Intense.” That’s the word that best described my new reality.

It felt like I was seeing the world with someone else’s eyes.

The days after my kundalini awakening were tremendously difficult. Intense physical pain, suicidal thoughts, violent past life memories, a rollercoaster of emotions. Thankfully, I had gone online and researched more about my experience.

I learned that I was living through a “spontaneous” kundalini awakening.

As I perused various websites and read multiple articles, I could sense a certain narrative around the phenomenon of kundalini awakenings. According to the “experts”, one must be very careful not to “force” kundalini to rise because it can cause severe problems, including insanity and death.

This narrative caused discomfort in me. It smelled of a spiritual mindset based on fear, not love. So I stopped reading articles about kundalini and decided to let the serpent energy (as she is known) do her job.

I was going to write my own kundalini narrative: one that fit-in better with the spiritual lessons I had been absorbing in my own life.

Here are the top three.

Lesson 1

Everything is divinely timed. In other words, everything occurs at the perfect time—not one minute too soon or one minute too late.

Lesson 2

We’re a part of an intricate, beautiful, and infinite web of life. And this web works on its own. It weaves even when we’re not consciously aware of it. Put another way:

Life has a life of its own.

We participate in the web and we are the web. We’re Creation and creators. But even though we’re powerful beyond measure, there’s still a natural flow to life that we cannot violate.

Lesson 3

The wisdom of the universe is infinite. Divine intelligence is infinite. And I may be Source at my core, but there’s one thing I have in this dimension that filters my divinity: mind or ego.

The ego is a wonderful tool but it’s limited. Bottom line: the universe always knows more than our minds do. Simple as that.

These three profound spiritual lessons just didn’t fit in with the kundalini narrative I was reading about online.

When people say that it’s dangerous to “force” a kundalini awakening, they’re assuming she can be awoken against her will. And to be honest, that sounds a tad arrogant to me.

If everything really is divinely ordered, if the universe really is perfect, if the web of life is wise and complex beyond our imaginations, can we really say we can “force” the central creating energy (kundalini) of it all to wake up?

To me, the answer to this question was easy and led quickly to another conclusion:

There’s no such thing as spontaneous or forced kundalini awakenings.

Kundalini awoke in me at exactly the perfect time, in the perfect manner. And I feel that’s always the case. Kundalini rises in us when our souls are ready and if we have a “soul contract” with her (ie, she’s helping us fulfill our life mission). I call this the Soul-Kundalini Partnership.

Kundalini awakenings are never about what the mind wants. They’re always about what our souls want, in collaboration with the Universe.

I’ve had many people ask if I could help awaken their kundalini. “I’m ready,” they say.

And my answer is always the same:

“The serpent energy in you will awaken if it is part of your path in this life. And she will awaken with or without help.”

This is the most honest answer I can give. I think it helps bring the phenomenon of kundalini awakening out of the prism of the mind and into the prism of the soul.

Kundalini awakening should never be a goal we set with our minds. This will only lead to frustration and anger. That’s not to say that people cannot be helped. I certainly was and am very thankful for the love and support I received during the tumultuous weeks following my kundalini awakening.

We can give each other love, help, and support when a Soul-Kundalini Partnership is activated.

Kundalini awakenings can be ecstatic, blissful. But they can also be extremely difficult. Mine was. But we can rest assured of one thing:

Our Soul-Kundalini partnership is only activated when we’re ready.

And that awakening always comes for the greater good of all, with unconditional love.

Now it’s your turn!

Have you experienced a Kundalini awakening? If so, what were your symptoms?

Let me know in the comment section below.

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With deep love and gratitude;

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* This article was originally published on the Elephant Journal on 06/01/15. Edited.

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28 Comments
  • I think I had a Kundalini awakening in 2008. When I came into my friend gathering. There was an guru who introduced having ability to cure diseases, which I don’t know if it’s true. They made a group which aligning in the circle and the guru was outside using his secret energy. Everybody spoke “Aum” and everybody started to shake body. I didn’t join in that group, Then later that guru insisted me to join in the circle, I refused several times, but he still insisted. Then I hesitated to join in. I felt my body shaking slightly. Then the guru asked me to move in center of circle. Then my body started to shake left and right, back and forward, then circle. When I came back home, my body started to shake continuously. I had to restraint my body all the time 24/24 and I felt very tired. I was freaked out and asked my friend what hell going on. He couldn’t answer, the guru had gone. It happened shaking for weeks, then my body back to normal. I didn’t intend to awake Kundalini, and didn’t have any ambition to awake it. But it happened.
    Then later it happened the strange thing, when I sitting quietly, my body start to dance. I moved my hand very flexible, with the shape look strange too, just like the kind of spiritual rituals. I was still be conscious to watch my hand moving at that time.
    One guy told me that is a sign of evil, just like somebody possessed my body and he asked me to stop it. Then I tried to stop. Then year later, I watched documentary about Kundalini in india, there was one guy shaking the body just like mine. So I understood it is a kind of Kundalini. For me, the Kundalini is still a secret, there are contradictory about Kundalini. Some say it’s good, some say it’s evil which I really don’t know which way I should go from here. I let it go. Years by years, it seems my intuition increased a lot, What I think in my mind, it comes in reality. Then I start seeing a lot of synchronicity.
    When the good thing come, my mouth lifted up and made me quite scared about that, because It seems i knew the reason why I smile, I knew there was good news come to me at that time. But when my mouth smile like that, it seems someone else smile, not me.
    One day I found one of my ability. On the way to work, I had an abdomen. At that time, i just knew how to do thing by letting the energy coming to my abdomen and relax it not to feel pain anymore. I was very surprise that how can I know to do thing like that. I’m the person who is not patient and lazy 🙂 so I don’t do that often. Because to make the pain relief, I need to concentrate long enough which it hard for me to focus long
    Another thing is surprised too, I automatically know how to mediate when I’m moving, riding on the street. I just know how to vision like imaging the green water….to fix my body not function well. I often have stress in work, when doing that my head just like being massage.
    Every time, I have questions in my mind, I pay attention that there are always answers on youtube for my cases. It seems invisible force show it to me.
    But since one year ago, my house has the strange phenomenon. When I sleep up stair, I always wake up around 3am. Then if I back to sleep, my body cannot move although my conscious come back. I was very scared about ghost. Something alert me to get up at that time. Then if I back to down stair to sleep, then it is back to normal. Please help me to have a video about it. I don’t want to fear all the time. The ghost if available, I want them to let go in peace
    The stiff phenomenon recently I can control by calm down and observe the body stuck and it back to normal. But I don’t know the root cause of it. I found in youtube just general information about waking up at 3am, but I don’t know if it’s true.

  • I experienced it for the first time in August 5, 2017. Since that time I am going through tumultuous changes. As the energy has reached my head, I am suffering from severe headache and tremendous weakness along with emotional turmoils. I am taking medication for migraine and emotional issues (anti-depressants). Life seems difficult!

  • #Askchristina

    I 😁 I feel that my ego is pushing me in a dilemma… That is, feeling like a contradiction between beiing a creator (trying to control everything) and letting flow (afraid of not be able to attract want you want but what you need) . I suppose I feel that I can manifest my own reality but also that universe knows better than me. So… My question is: how can we trust life if we tired of getting what we need but not what we want?
    I hope it makes sense to you.
    Thank you so much 😁

  • Hello ♥️. I don t know. One day i was laying in bed, next to my boyfriend, but Alone In my feelings and thoughts. I felt a deeper and meaningfull Pure and non-attached love about everything on / in life. Then the spine began to “Spin”. I got scared. But its was warm, intense and slow. So i Just felt it. Soo goood.
    I AM not very spiritual. But i stoped searching or fighting to BE enlightened. … But i have an eye illness, That gives me 3d vision… signs i guess ♥️ from the stars. To wake up??? 😁
    I was grateful and ended that relationship. Because Pure love releases us from chains.
    For me it might have been ♥️🥂

  • I’m having an ongoing Kundalini awakening. It ‘woke up’ spontaneously on its own and has been slowly dismantling the life I once knew. I’ve lost interest in things I used to enjoy doing, and when I try to do things that require considerable concentration, the Kundalini causes pressure in the head.

    I wholeheartedly disagree with you. Kundalini is pure evil.

    • Christina Lopes July 2, 2019 at 1:58 pm

      Kundalini is not “evil”, quite the contrary. But it requires us to learn how to work with the energy as it purifies us. The symptoms we go through during these awakenings are temporary and it’s best to surrender to what the energy is doing rather than fight.

  • Hi. Am very grateful for the article. You’ve said it all. I was introduced to the word and experiences of Kundalini by the Divine Kundalini herself. I’ve never come across the word before. I was taught by the Divine power herself through the internet!. My conclusion on the dangers of Kundalini is that, she would not hurt me because I didn’t cause it, I didn’t invite her, I never know She resides in me. She chose to awaken in me. So the Mother Goddess would not just manifest to me just to hurt me in anyway. I believed that those who try to “force” her have heard or knew about the benefits and had tried to quicken an awakening before they could be called.

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  • Hi I had an awakening last November when I had a panic attack I’d had a bout of anxiety, but while I was in hospital I started getting electric shocks from my head to my feet it was so intense I couldn’t make out what was happening to me, this has been going on for 9 months, I’d see devil faces when I was asleep then I would see angelic faces, flashes of light like bolts of lightening while I was trying to sleep, I was terrified and thought I was losing my mind my muscles would jump through the night, tingling and pain in mY head, numbness, my joints hurt and will crack all the time, it’s died down a bit now but I had a week we’re my whole body would buzz from head to toe as soon as I opened my eyes, I don’t no when it will eventually stop, but you have to be strong to get through it, I never asked for it to happen and I’d never even heard of it, but I was feeling spiritual for a few years and started meditating to keep my anxiety under control,

  • I recently had my Kundalini Awakening and I was wondering why are my eye colors changing I was originally a brown Hazel to emerald green to blue now back to emerald green. Is this common during Awakening my weakening process has been very very rapid my old eagle is almost completely shatter in the course of 2 months. Any feedback would be very much appreciated.

  • I think I am experiencing a kundalini process/rising/awakening…I’m not sure what to call it. I didn’t intend it to happen. I’ve been practicing yoga once a week for a few years and I started meditating daily about 10 months ago, although I have meditated on and off for years.
    I started experiencing spontaneous movements during meditation about 6 months ago, then outside of meditation when just relaxing. These have become increasingly intense, rampant and bizarre. I also experience strange breathing patterns, periods of breath suspension etc. I’ve researched what is happening to me (thank God for the internet!) and I believe that what I’m experiencing are called spontaneous kriyas and pranayama. I’ve also found myself doing spontaneous “mudras” and devotional postures.
    Sometimes I feel totally “wired” like the energy is just too high and I have to lie on the floor. I shake, twitch and contort for a while, then that subsides and recently I’ve noticed if I stay lying down, my body is guided into yoga-type postures…at the moment one resembling the bridge and the baby pose.
    I totally agree with what you have written. I have come across quite frightening material on the internet about kundalini awakenings and kundalini crises. I wouldn’t class myself as emotionally resilient, so they did concern me. I thought, can I cope with this or am I heading for a breakdown? However, my experience is not like this at all. I feel that I can completely trust this energy within me. I’m able to kind of step aside and let it be. I feel that it knows what is best for me and it does seem like a benevolent, maternal energy inside of me, with its own agenda. However, I am finding this process quite isolating. It’s becoming the most important part of my life, yet I can’t talk to anyone about it, because basically they’d think I’d lost the plot and more than likely wouldn’t believe me!
    I’m withdrawing, spending more time alone, meditating, practicing yoga and reading spiritual material. I also don’t have to suppress the Kriyas when I’m alone. In the absence of a spiritual master or guru to guide me through this, I’m just going to have to trust Kundalini Shakti to go easy on me🤞🏻🙏🏻

  • #askchristina
    I don’t know if what I experienced yesterday fits in, I didn’t read after it, just got here.
    I spent the weekend in the place three years ago I met my twin, as I intended to let him go out of my life, further releasing my attachments.

    I was meditating at the riverside, letting go of residual anger and resentment, and opening my heart chakra more… then after that I was looking at the place around me with different eyes, it was as though I really started seeing my surroundings, the trees and the bugs, the flowers and the butterflies… and inside of me I felt my soul entering me more deeply than before, it didn’t just stop at the higher chakras as before but went further down… and I just experienced the feeling as if being reborn…

    As I was feeling into what I feel, I started feeling a gentle flow of energy through my spine and as if a big beam of light entering through my crown… I was just witnessing and feeling, no judgement, no labels, or if thoughts came, i breathed through them.. and then I had a full body orgasm, and another, and I just breathed normally, not even trans breathing or meditating… it was profound… and I’m still feeling tinkling and more whole… feeling detached and connected at the same time… I pray my soul remains with me and is now anchored, and the heart opening proceeds towards fully embracing love, making me a living expression of unconditional love, in every day in every way…

  • What you write really resonates with me. My Kundalini Awakening happened spontaneously after a 180 degree shift in consciousness during a hypnotic healing session. I’m not a spiritual seeker, yet apparently my soul intended this to happen. As much as I absolutely understand Divine timing, being barely functional as a mother to a son with his own challenges (that I have to homeschool since he was 1/4 the way through middle school), has been massively difficult. So many days when I needed to hibernate. Too many days of yelling at the world of spirit and God, telling them if things didn’t ease up, I wouldn’t make it. Wishing this life could just be finished. Feeling so alone in this process. My mind has been so cloudy, fuzzy, squirrelly, unbalanced, as it’s being rewired, refitted, whatever, that I can’t hold focus long enough to read a book anymore. And my former passion and way to process my crap, writing, is sometimes impossible. I forget things as badly as my ADHD husband. Body aches and pains come and go. Chronic exhaustion and my weight has ballooned (I know it will come off at some point). I’m almost 3 yrs in and my perception of everything has changed so much. The massively deep healing has been incredible, and I can’t wait to have me back.

  • I don’t know if I’m experiencing an awakening or not. I am meditating a few times a week after exercising, and over the last week, I started moving back and forth and then counter clockwise circle motions that goes bigger then slows down. I feel some pain. Almost like a “bite” in a few places in my back and a feeling of movement up my spine.
    Today, I felt very hot hearing my throat then sounds and pressure in my head.
    I felt or seen a lotus flower at the crown of my head that almost opened. Then it all stops.
    This has happened about six times now.
    Is this a partial or the starting an awakening? If so, what advice do you suggest to keep going or what to do?
    Thanks

  • Thank you for sharing this. I learned what happened to me 3 years ago was a kundalini awakening by searching for my diagnosis from a mental health professional (major depression with psychosis), late last year. I’m now learning that it was meant to happen to clear my religious baggage (I thought it was judgement day and it brought up a ton of religious beliefs that I subconsciously had). I understand that synchronicities are signs that I’m awakening but because of that religious baggage, I’m having some trouble with coaching myself through what I know now to be a kundalini awakening trying to happen again when I see certain numbers repeatedly (I continuously see 44, and 6’s bring fear) My body begins shaking and I feel energy throughout my body, rising, but I am still uncertain what I’m supposed to be doing. I feel in my soul that it is a “soul contract” and it was extremely helpful to learn there is a soul-kundalini contract. I am extremely new to the spiritual awakening journey and I know that I am supposed to overcome fear, and I sincerely thank you for all that you do and share. I was extremely afraid that my soul was leaving my body when I started shaking and being new to the spiritual realm even being real, it is extremely comforting to find information that addresses everything with unconditional love. I have to keep reassuring myself that the overwhelming fear I keep facing is to help me heal, and that I’ll be safe on the other side of it.

  • John Paul Medhurst May 3, 2020 at 9:24 am

    Hello there!
    I am a 44 year old writer from Manchester, and have a peculiar trick I would like to investigate. At will, I can do something with my diaphragm/solar plexus area, that floods my body with some kind of energy. In pulses of 1-1.5 seconds, it is entirely pleasurable…head, fingers, toes, chest, everywhere, and though it floors me for a second, it leaves me instantly fluid, focused and relaxed. I was concerned initially that I was borrowing against my body’s natural serotonin/dopamine levels, though I have been advised by a neurologist at Manchester University that this is unlikely, as the body would automatically balance these levels and told me it sounded like my Vagus nerve and that cross-wiring probably allowed me to access pleasure sensors. After furrther reading, it appears to be something to do with my fight or flight mechanism, and my sympathetic nervous system releasing neurotransmitters. I won’t pretend I know anything about this. Just by chance I caught something on Kundalini this morning and it sounded close… But without the pain… Just utter pleasure. A rising, pulsing light. It really does feel like an awakening.

  • Thank you for your post. I agree so much with your thoughts on this. 4/3/2018 – electric current up from base of spine, around ribs, and up to back of head where there was intense pressure, got scared (had felt like an orgasm b4 the head) Many things looking back leading up to this. Never heard of kundalini. Had stopped drinking as much alcohol and smoking marijuana more. Chalked it up to being super stoned. Week later, 4/13/2018, reading an article that mentioned kundalini awakening and thought, what is that? Read it, had a panic attackish. I really lost it. The day b4 i had had something on my mind for a while and made a decision. Then the article. I lost my mind. I started reading more into it and read about the 3 coil snake and saw a pic. I had seen this before. I remember being around 19 or 20, just for done my waitress shift, laying on my parents couch to nap. I would always watch the specks float in my eyelids and i would always try to catch it. I could pull it close but then my eye would move and it would disappear. This day i got it and held it. It was a three coiled snake with its fangs out. I remember feeling scared, told my mom and asked if thats how i would die. She only looked at me strangely and i let it go. I was 33 when the electricity went up my spine. My life fucking collapsed pretty much immediately. Feelings of being molested as a child, still unsure and still randomly come up, seeing the lies all my loved ones, family, friends were living and the world. Tried for a month to “fix” relationships, have conscious convos with every1 i loved. Nothing. I got in my car and left and drove west. I lost everything and everyone i loved from Pennsylvania. Been west for 2 1/2 years now. Wanted to die for a long time. Now i finally am becoming more at ease with letting things flow and just having faith. I agree with her, do your best to stay away from articles, they really messed my head up and made me feel like i was failing. I wasnt. Follow your heart and soul. Believe in yourself and every step you take and the universe will just continue to give you all of your dreams. Even now, when i stop believing, things get a little funky and i refocus. <3

  • Christina,

    I really appreciate this post as it is giving me peace of mind as I navigate the kudalini energy that has been running through me for the last 9 days. I attended a meditation workshop teaching me to open my heart and connect to divine love. It was a six day workshop and day one the energy started running through me. I was able to ground and settle the energy with the help of another person. I was enjoying the meditations and entering places of divine love and peace. I had an energy that felt like it was rattling every cell in my body. I was losing my appetite and just feeling different. On day four I had a full on kudalini experience. It lasted for hours. My body shaking, kinda jerking around at times, and lifting off the ground. Day five same thing. Day six same thing. Late in the day on day six i ate and drank some wine. I felt like i was coming back to 3D if you will. Day seven I was packing my suitcase to return home and a light shot through the sky right at my head and took me to the floor. I yelled for my friend and she witnessed two more shots of light hitting my body. My body tensed up like I have never felt before. I cried and surrendered. Scared with thoughts running through my mind I couldn’t handle anymore energy going through my body and the light would come back. I shook, twisted, lifted from the ground as the energy overtook my body. I had no control and was afraid i was going to miss my flight home. I had friends try to get me out of the hotel, as i shook and seized, to get me to a place to ground. I walked in the ocean twitching, convulsed on the ground, hugged trees shaking uncontrollably. I was desperate to move this energy so i could go home. Long story short I made it home without incident. I remained in my power to control it, but as soon as i relaxed and became grateful to be home i started to convulse again. I was scaring my family, but i had no control. I used all my power to fly home and my body and will had nothing left to control the energy once home. I had to surrender to it. I am on day nine now and still have a mild energy running through me. What I have noticed is if I get stressed by a situation or startled i will start to seize. At this point I am afraid the energy could be hurting my nervous system as it has lasted so long. I have been unsuccessful finding any info on energy running this long through someone. I have been grounding alot. Infact, my husband hooked me up to a copper wire that the other end was placed in the ground and i still have quite a bit of energy in me I can’t lie I am a bit scared. Any ideas you might have to help me i would be grateful.

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